In the Womb……..Part 1

On with the story….the time spent in the womb, for those who do not forget, for those who do not sleep, for those who do not enjoy the dark, hot, cramped, noisy place, that time is the most awful time on earth. It was agony. I spent most of it thinking “This is a disaster. Now what? How do I get out of this?” I did not want to go through with it; I wanted out.  It didn’t matter that there was “someone” to find; it didn’t matter that there was something to do; it didn’t matter that what I was to do was important; none of it mattered. I did NOT want to do anything with “that woman.” My Mother. Where to start? At this point, I can’t tell you what was making me so unhappy. Did I know she was lying? Probably, since I could hear everything. I knew who she was, and I did not want to go on this adventure with her as a part of it.

After my attempts to self-abort failed,  I tried “playing dead” and stopped moving at all. From the stories my Mother told me, she thought I was dead and had gone to the Dr. concerned, but he assured her that he could hear a heartbeat and that some babies are quiet.  I was still making her sick to her stomach; the Dr. told her to be thankful I wasn’t kicking her from the inside!  Actually, when I heard him say that I almost kicked her just to do it; but that would have blown my cover, and, it’s just not my nature to be mean.

I forgot they could hear my heartbeat! Darn! I pondered my dire situation and after much consideration, I decided to grow a tumor and hide behind it, and if I did that I figured, they wouldn’t hear a heartbeat, and they’d just assume I was dead.  Brilliant, except, I didn’t think it through and totally forgot about what would happen after that.

Time passed……and the tumor grew……….

Till next time,

Thank you, Dear Reader,
With Great Love, Namaste’
❤ LAMP ❤

P.S. I apologize for the lack of photos or graphics; I will add graphics as time allows; for the time being the important thing is to get it written.

P.P.S. I welcome your comments and questions!

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In the Beginning……..Part 2

The last post I just jumped out there and dropped the bombshell; if you’ve come back for more, I thank you from the bottom of my heart! I hope I prove worthy!

I wish I could clearly remember what happened, and how it worked, before…..before I got where I was when I first remember…

Since I’ve let it out in my last post: My first memories are of discussions in the dark…..  the first memories are of quiet discussion, or rather, a discussion in quiet.

The discussion had to do with my life mission, there was an “assignment” and an “agreement.” I remember the heaviness of the assignment and felt the weight of responsibility that came with it. I don’t remember what it is, but I remember knowing it was Huge. I remember accepting it, “my mission, my assignment”, and feeling profoundly honored; I promised to do my best. I also remember something vaguely about it being the last time I would have to do this “incarnation” thing; only if I was successful, however.

Then I remember the horror, sheer horror. First, it’s the noise. How to bear it?! Every word, every swallow, every heartbeat, pulse; to say nothing of the constant movement! It’s the noisiest and most dizzying place on earth; terrible! Simply terrible! Oh, and let’s not forget the talking. Talking, talking, talking. SHUT UP AND SIT DOWN already, people are trying to sleep in here!!!!

Mother’s wonder why they get morning sickness! Ha, I can tell you! WE WANT OUT! NO, NO, NO we do NOT WANT TO BE IN HERE!!!! LET US OUT!!! If you won’t let us out, then for crying out loud, SIT DOWN BE QUIET!

We get the “heavy assignment” and want to think about it, and who can think with this constant racket going on!

In my case, it wasn’t only the noise. It wasn’t the dark, at least not at first anyway. At some point, I realized I was inside my Mother, and I realized who my mother  WAS! OH NO, NO, NO, NO, NOT HER I will not do it with her!!!! NO, NO, NO!!!!! Oh, this was an awful situation! Terrible! Horrible! I was UNHAPPY! Can you tell?

I spent a fair amount of time fighting it right in the beginning.  From the reports my Mother had, I made her sick the entire pregnancy, in fact, according to her, she never got over her morning sickness, even after I was born. This has actually never occurred to me until this moment, but I wonder if I did hold that power over her somehow; I was certainly not aware of it at the time, that I remember. I do believe we have those powers should we choose to use them.

You see, that is the test we are conducting here on this Planet Earth that we have all created. We wanted to create and physically experience Heaven on Earth, but then when we got here, our physical forms, our “people,” forgot how to behave and act.

Here we are. We forgot how to act and we still have not learned. Many people have tried. As pompous as this sounds, what I know, is I am here to help, along with many, many others, to turn things around.

I am here, with my story, to help people, who want to, to remember how to behave, and to give you the simple skills, should you choose to grab the bull by the horn (your mind is the bull). It seems so bold, so grandiose, and yet it doesn’t feel that way at all; all I feel at this point is the need to write the words and get the message out. It’s a story; it’s story about something real.

Thank you, Dear Reader,

With Great Love, Namaste’
❤ LAMP ❤

P.S. I apologize for the lack of photos or graphics; I will add graphics as time allows; for the time being the important thing is to get it written.

P.P.S. I welcome your comments and questions!

 

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In the Beginning……Part 1

I suspect that any life stories you’ve ever read started in childhood. This story starts before childhood; it starts before birth. My first memories are while I was still in-utero (in my mother)(actually even before then, but we’ll start here, in the womb for the purpose of this story). I’m not talking a fleeting memory; I’m speaking of months of memories.  Right here, already I can hear some of you doubting me, or disagreeing with me “that’s not how it works.” This is, to some degree, why this story has taken so long to get written. It’s too fantastic; no one or few will believe it. I’ve tried numerous times in the past to write my life story and leave all the fantastic stuff out. I can’t; none of the rest of it makes any sense without it. I have nothing to say to all the disbelievers or doubters out there; there’s nothing to say.

This is real and it’s my life. Of one thing I am 100% certain: I’ve had it for a reason, and part of that reason is to share it with others. Of this, I am certain. Now is the time; the time has come and there is no more stalling. Although I have shared some of this, to some even most of it, this is actually not about me; it’s about whoever reads it. It is FOR whoever will read it; read it and get it. All I know is that I have to do this; and now that I’ve accepted that this is the next step in my “mission” I’m anxious to finish! LOL

Joking aside, there is an order I see, an orderly evolution of the coming months. I see this project being completed rapidly because its time has come. I see a lot of things coming to fruition, and a lot of new things emerging. I also see a lot passing into decay. That is the way of this physical illusion plane in which we exist. Until the “Oneness Consciousness Shift Movement” is complete and we leave the world of duality behind, pain, suffering, and decay will continue, for those beliefs. The other part of my “mission” is to help the world leave all of that behind. We can not have Heaven on Earth until we start acting and behaving in a certain way. If you trace any religion to its origin, to the real source, the true beginning, each and every religion starts as love. They all start in the same place, yet where are they now? Where are we?

Well, that’s enough for one sitting!

Thank you, Dear Reader,
With Great Love, Namaste’
❤ LAMP ❤

P.S. I apologize for the lack of photos or graphics; I will add graphics as time allows; for the time being the important thing is to get it written.

P.P.S. I welcome your comments and questions!

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Hello Dear Reader!

Welcome to the stories of my life! Some of them will seem fantastic, unbelievable, even. They seem that way to me too. I promise you, they are all true. I will do my best to protect everyone’s privacy; these stories are more about what’s happened to me and how I processed it than who is involved. This is not about dirty laundry; it’s about clean thoughts on my part about the responsibility of my situation.  That’s something I can’t explain, how or when I came to fully understand my responsibility and hand in my situation, but I feel is it a blessing.   It’s never “out there” – it’s always “in here.”  Life is not a blame game, but you wouldn’t know it by looking around you. I hope you enjoy what you find here. I welcome your comments and questions. For my many friends who have demanded I put “the pen to paper,” I hope you find what you’re looking for. If not, send requests and I’ll write posts to your specifications, so to speak! 😉

As always, I thank you, Dear Reader,
With Great Love, Namaste’
❤ LAMP ❤

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